oh wait...i do that everyday.

i find it funny that i am constantly attacked by certain board members yet i am the only bad guy in any exchange. i am at a loss to how that works really because i was always under the impression 2 wrongs dont make a right.

i can only guess that my constant contradictions are what leaves me open to the myriad of verbal stabs from the peanut gallery. all i can say in my defense is some days i prefer blue while others i prefer red. it is certainly not planned i just change my mind a lot.

anyway life goes on and we all lead ours differently. i have lead mine on a day by day basis for so long i see no problem with doing this or that on a whim. i never plan ahead to see if my choices are PC or not i simply make them based on my current mood. it's an excuse sure but it's the only truth about myself i know. i tend to be swept up in things without looking forward or back. being impulsive is my nature and fighting it is out of the question most times. i realize too late more than not that i was even being impulsive.

so to summarize, albeit in a long drawn out manner, i am not here to whine about any perceived mistreatment. why would i do that when i can dish out the smack/bs too. no i'm just trying to point out that anything i can do some will do better or exactly the same as me. but then those that do try to make themselves seem better than me which is a joke imo. these folks claim to be above my antics then they do the same things i do. there is no real way to combat that attitude so i walk away only to be called more names for doing so. i might as well argue with the mirror. heh there i at least have a chance to change an opinion.

btw to anyone who reads the 4 paragraphs here completely, bravo. it is more than my alleged enemies will do as they will grasp a few words and hammer me later for them. it's no more than i expect anyway.